Fears

Most people are afraid of many things..


Spiders (check)

Heights (check)

holes or skin coloured holes

ghosts

the dark (sometimes)

but what i will be talking about is my greatest fear


death.


I hate the idea of death

If i had one wish no, it wouldn't be to be famous, or to have that cute guy at school notice me (example only, there are no "cute" guys at my school in my opinion).

It would be to live forever.

Basically all of my fears are relevant to death.

Heights because if i fall off i could die

spiders because they can sometimes kill you

the dark because its all black (the colour of death)

and the scarecrow in batman is professor johnathan crane. a professor majouring in theories of death.

the prospect of suicide is stupid to me.

i would panic if i saw a gun.

or a giant hole i could die from.

and unlike my sister who is fascinated with peoples idea of death, i hate it.

and whats worse is that death will hapen to all of us

we will all die

and even worse?

i only realised i had this fear yesterday..

before that i would laugh at people who were scared of death, but not anymore

i was fascinated with the theory of 2012. but then started panicing

i hate pain. any pain. the fact that tidal waves, earthquakes, mass suicides, solar flares might happen on one day frightens me

or the fact that we could die tomorrow.

but what scares me the most is that if 2012 happens, me and all my friends will be 15.

15.

that is equivalent to taylor swifts "15", but thats when she goes back and tells herself all the stuff she wished she knew.

id be doing that from heaven

i would never graduate

or drive

or travel

or achieve my biggest dream.

to be famous..

a famous guitarist

that would never happen.

and that depresses me.

so i pray to god that he wont let 2012 happen, so i will achieve my dream.

or even that a gunman could kill me.

my best friend got robbed last night.

yes.

he could have killed her if she was home.

death..


im not scared of the grim reeper, i think hes cool.

or skeletons.

or zombies.

just death.

Tri